fleeting .osi

'fleeting'

Got caught

In this quirky circumstance

Of the unlit alleys of distraught emotions

And unexplained phobias

Where drowsy eyed 'gators of depressive thoughts

Yawn wide open in their readiness

To gobble up an entire being

Where wave after wave

Of hushed,hypocritical corporate conversations

Sound like deafening cacophonies

Where you become a kid once more

Wanting to cling to someone

Or something that's never there

The day after a school shootout

Where closed mindsets decide what 'good' is
Which is actually not

Where..the colossus of gigantic business interests

Feeds on a collection of puny little solitary dreams

Like a whale devouring those shoals of tiny fishes

Where.a.tight lipped, hawk eyed jury

Chills you

To the marrow of your bones

For an opportunity that you lose out upon

Where relationships are deemed to be investments

That fluctuate with current price indices

Yet somehow

Out of this 'black hole'..

My thoughts and ideas escape

Like unchained,playful bumblebees

And butterflies seeking to interact with wild flowers

Me?

'nother faceless nobody

Trapped

In the fleeting twirls

And the crazy swirls

Of an ephemeral whirlwind

Inside my TV..

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[from an earlier draft]

autumn.osi

'autumn'

swollen pumpkin dreams turn to frost
choreographing the loneliness
bare limbed trees mime abstract dance forms
one shaky leaf enacts the fall

summer leaves a different color
this rusted brown amber of wine
see his sad alcoholic eyes
just the autumn every season..

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:footnote~
{:before assuming the pen name " zoya"// -noun:fem:_ [ internet sources ~ translate "zoya" as-life-alive- "searcher"- or God's gift-] //- i had penned ~ ages back~ [in college] my first ever ' poem? '* in english~between then and the commencement of my blog in feb 2008, i had not written a single poem - none ( in english).~{"do not write poetry if you can help it"is a quote i like to remember.. this sombre (scribbled at 17) 'poem?-'autumn memories'*-posted > here(click)] - could make u laugh!~(incidentally, i'm born to hindu brahmin parents ,with a liberal mind set :.ref :long time ago question by Geraldine[MPP] "like ur first name"- 'zoya'~ (-it holds no religious connotations)- }
{ps:{sep22-12.14am IST}the said poem? 'autumn memories' can be read at:
http://peerpressurized.blogspot.com/2008/02/autumn-memories.html.-thanks.}

seeds~osi

'seeds'

the optimism titanic

sinks inside my whimsical bones

panic inside a closed cabin

the voyaging maverick yearnings

the chaos of impending doom

strips bare the facades and the truths

hanging on to the most precious

beauty of a beloved's dream

from the wreckage emerge stories

of unending love and desire

within a survivor's heartbeat

seeds of resilience blossom

become the flowers of laughter

alive with the fragrance of life

my pessimism's nemesis

this optimism titanic..

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'defenses down'

the soft drizzles of hope
no thwarting umbrellas
sunshine,a clear truth
need no colored glasses
chuck the wind cheater off
the spirit rides the breeze
roll n roll on the snow
earth's creamy playground
defenses down greet
the wind, rain and snow
and a beaming sun
see,the children can
while the grown-ups dream *..

*[revised:our dream is their world-
/sun07.'08]
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